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Week 53 Review Apologies for the lateness for this one - ended up having a pretty active weekend. This review is for week 53 of my MT journey and week 9 of my FTMO challenge. This week was challenging mentally, as I had to overcome my fear of posting publicly and losing; this mental block was adding more pressure to my trades, since I made a commitment to myself to do this. However, I overcame this block by realising its just my ego, and that losing is part of the game. Furthermore, I started to reframe the idea of losing publicly as another strength; having a documented track record for when I do eventually make it, will only make winning taste even sweeter. Anyways, I digress - zero fear and block overcome. Performance wise, I took four losses and one BE, with one emotional revenge trade that was outside of my edge. Due to the lateness of writing this, P&L also shows trades from this week on graph. Frustratingly, I had two trades that were hit, but not filled due to spread, both of which performed very nicely; with one trade hitting my final TP plan and the other hitting TP1 & TP2. I did experience a lot of tilt on the first front run, but quickly regained composure, and just accepted the outcome - the edge works. Sure its annoying knowing I could have finished green this week, but my profit is a perfect reflection of my experience - more reps needed. Despite taking the weekend off, my trading habits still had a very consistent performance from mon to fri, and tbh I needed a break after working the past 27 days in a row. Will start decoding again soon daily once I've finished my more obsidian upgrades. Atomic habits was strong during the week, but I did miss out on my workouts over the weekend - other than that, not too fussed.

Every breakdown is an opening to self-discovery. In those moments, ego dissolves and the heart pours out what the mind cannot handle. It feels unbearable, but if you pause and listen, the turmoil reveals wisdom: your self is your only friend and enemy. It becomes your friend

Are you overthinking? Is it good or bad? Overthinking becomes constructive when you are overthinking about processes. The more you think about how you do it, the more clarity you get about it. You will find open questions during those overthinking sessions, and if you address those open questions with knowledge by seeking help from AI or the Internet, you will find confirmation. That confirmation slows down the act of overthinking, and it leads you closer to a path you can finally decide on. Psychologists call this structured reflection, and studies show it actually improves problem-solving and creativity because your brain begins connecting dots you normally overlook. The best way to deal with overthinking about processes would be while taking nature walks, gym sessions, running, or even closing your eyes in meditation. Let those thoughts flow through, contemplate on them, and whenever you feel like you have found a solid clue, just deep dive into it. Those clues will help you find the right direction. Movement and meditation give the mind a safe space to wander, and often the best solutions appear when your body is active but your mind is loose. Overthinking becomes destructive when you think about chasing an outcome without having any direction on the path that would take you there. Sometimes you overthink about what is gone, wishing you could change your past. But you cannot, so it is better to think about what you could do in the future. Again, when you start thinking about future outcomes and you see no clarity on how you will get there, your mind becomes restless, your intellect becomes numb, and you stop learning new things. You think assumptions are enough to lead a good life. Those assumptions are poison for your mind. They will show you the wrong path, create self-doubt, and trap you in the loop of overthinking which leads nowhere. Psychology calls this rumination, replaying fears, regrets, or comparisons. Left unchecked, it feeds anxiety and depression because your mind gets stuck in a loop without resolution. One of the best way to stop that loop is to redirect yourself into extreme physical activities where you challenge your body. Run 10 KM daily, lift weights, and those physical challenges will slow down those destructive thoughts to some extent. Science backs this: exercise lowers stress hormones like cortisol, increases serotonin and dopamine, and resets brain chemistry so the same destructive loop cannot dominate. You will get resting periods, and in those moments, when you feel like you are getting fewer thoughts, do something productive in terms of acquiring knowledge. Read books, watch documentaries, watch educational videos, build a new hobby. Do something meaningful with your time. Build genuine interest in learning something new. Neuroscience shows that active learning stimulates the prefrontal cortex, which strengthens decision-making and quiets the emotional overdrive that fuels overthinking. Destructive overthinking does not only come from chasing outcomes. It also comes from the fear of uncertainty, which makes you delay action while you keep playing mental simulations. The solution is to take small, imperfect steps forward. Even tiny actions break the cycle faster than endless thinking. And if the root of overthinking lies in emotions like regret, ego, or comparison, physical effort alone will not be enough. You need journaling, therapy, or spiritual practices to process those emotions, otherwise the loop returns in a different form. The more you learn, the less you overthink, and the more clarity you build around process. And once you build clarity around process, even through the act of overthinking, it eventually helps. You end up flipping the script from destruction to construction.

To prove a point. Not to you… not to social media… but to myself. I wanted to convince my ego that I can “do it all.”